Category Archives: Poetry

I thought about you

I thought about you since you died

I thought about what it means

I thought about where I’m going

I thought about where I’ve been

Mostly I’ve thought about nothing

The vacuous void within

The sinewy passion has left me

I’m left without religion or sin

Then I thought about you again

I thought long and hard

I thought I was over

That which crushed me

I guess I need to think again

Sometimes

Sometimes it hurts when I look
When I ponder

Sometimes I decide in advance
When to gander

Sometimes it’s me in the shell
When it’s snowy

Sometimes it’s meant to be
When it’s painful

Sometimes I fake what I like
When I’m honest

Sometimes I’m honest with you
When I’m fake

Sometimes I hate being me
When disingenuous

Sometimes I hate you
When I love you

Nobody’s home

I look around

Nobody’s home

I look inside

I’m not here

I peer around

I pretend not to see

I dig into myself

I fake it with all I’ve got

I take inventory

And decide it’s not worth the gamble

I study myself

I figure I’m all alone

I peer listlessly

Into the void

Fuck!

Fuck!

Damn it!

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And now I’m done.

It’s okay

It’s okay
Because it is the springtime of it
It’s okay
Because you are the sun who knows only darkness

It’s not a beginning
It’s a start
It’s okay
Because it was white and fulfulling

It’s okay
It’s only a dream
It’s okay
Everything is exactly as it seems.

Misery loves company

You insist
Oh so I say
And I was there when it was small

And insignificant

And the bass was hollow and distant

And you didn’t think twice when I…
When I…

I suppose it was fate
To be where I was when I was
To be, to see, to smell the rain in the air
To touch it, to caress, to believe in you

And I suddenly believed
When your world collided with mine
Intense heat, radiation
Ate through the outer shell and dissolved the inner child